Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I'm going to show you how great I am

So, I watched this video and 3/4 of the way through this thought hit me:

"I am great, and I don't need a Spartan race or suchlike thing to prove to myself how great I am."

I was watching all these people in the video and while I admire their achievement and appreciate their training and efforts, I had zero desire to join them. I do not need someone hitting me with a stick to know I am incredible person.

Yes, I know how awesome it is, for example, to set out on a run that you did not know if you were going to be able to complete. You head out of the door and hit the Garmin with fear, and with butterflies in your stomach because you HOPE and you DREAM and you DESIRE to complete the run but you're not sure if you can.

And then, a few hours later, you DO finish it. You finish it strong and you feel on FIRE because you feel SO STRONG and CAPABLE and like you can do ANYTHING and the world is yours.

But that does not add to my greatness. That has not a whole heck of a lot to do with my greatness.

I'm going to show you how great I am - by holding my child when he's sick.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I drag my sorry butt out of bed at 5.15am to drive my child to seminary.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I play with my children instead of relaxing and letting my brain turn to mush.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I am pushed and stressed and emotionally pounded more than I can stand, but I give a soft answer and turn away wrath.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I get on my knees before the Lord.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I understand with clarity that I am great when I forget myself and go to work.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I think of others before myself.

I'm going to show you how great I am - when I understand and appreciate with every fiber of my being that I am a daughter of God and there is nothing greater than being a mother to my children and a wife to my husband.



Yeah, running and cycling make me feel powerful and elated and capable and strong and I LOVE IT! =) But I also understand that I am powerful beyond measure when I serve and love and give.