37 late last night on the bike.
15 on my feet early this morning.
80 on the bike planned for tomorrow.
I'm worried I'm doing too much, training for both a 50k trail run and a 100 mile ride. I'm worried I'm doing too little and will be undertrained for the individual events. Last night I was worried I was trashing my quads for this morning's run. Today I'm worried that my run tired my legs out and I'll bonk on the ride tomorrow. I'm worried about going so slow. I'm worried that I have to walk often so my ITB doesn't explode. I'm worried about the niggling pain on the bottom of my foot. I'm worried I'll do both events but it won't be pretty. I'm worried about failing. I have a huge fear of failure.
So, everybody sing with me now...
I can almost seeee it
That dream I'm dreeeaaaming but
there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it."
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
lost with no direction.
My faith is shaking.
But Iiiiiiii
I gotta to keep trryyying
Got to keeeep my head held hiiiigh
Because
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it moooooove
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm going to have to loooooose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the Cllliiiiiimb.
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knick me down but
no, I'm not breaking.
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most....
...just got to keep going
And Iiiiiiiii
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing oooooon
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it moooooove
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm going to have to loooooose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other siiiiiiide
It's the Cllliiiiiimb.
Don't stop now....go one more....
And
Rock what ya got! =)
5 comments:
That song came up on my ipod during my first 50K back in 2009. It came up with 4 miles left to go in the 50K, and it made me cry. You're doing great! Keep it up! Walk as often as you need to. We all believe in you.
You're such a BAMF!! You inspire me, Mom. Even though I absolutely despise Miley Cyrus. You're so cool and I'm very proud to be your daughter :)
So that's where you've been!
Do you know all your talk about running started getting me out and running? Sadly, I won't be racing anytime soon. I'm hoping to reach a point where the walkers don't get ahead of me. But I'm trying! :o)
Do whatever you do to train. I'm sure you'll be great!
Peace and Laughter!
Outstanding is what I predict for your future.
Great post and best wishes. Your daughter's comment made me spit my coffee in laughter!!
Oh my gosh, John! I would have bawled like a baby! Four miles left and hearing "I can almost see it...that dream I'm dreaming.." Makes me tear up just thinking about it.
Emily - sometimes you have to have a bit of Miley telling you you can do it. Thanks sweetie! You inspire me too.
Cristina!!! GO YOU on running! That is so awesome. Haha, I know how you feel on the whole "trying to reach a point where the walkers don't get ahead of me" =D "Ain't about how fast you get there..." =)
C2Iowa - she is pretty fabulous. =)
Thank you all so much for your encouragement.
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